Forgiving and forgetting

[RKGraphics]

I have had some trying times these last couple months. I have acted out of character, made rash decisions, did things I want to take back, said things I wished I hadn't....and mainly feel like a fool. I've gained some great friends, lost a potential good friend, and had to deal with jerks non stop. So below is kind of what goes through my mind, mainly lately.

I have been beaten down emotionally and I tried to trust and find the good in people, then got screwed some more. So this kinda sums up my thoughts.

Jesus said to turn the other cheek
He also said to forgive 7 times 70
Easy for Him to say
He was God
Or at least the son of God


How do I get to the place
Where I forgive those
Who disrespect me and malign me
Those who could care less about my feelings
Yet I still care about theirs

Why is forgiveness so hard
Why does it take so much out of you
Why is it easier to hold on to a grudge
Rather than to let it go

Am I doing something wrong
If it is true that we are to love others
As we love ourselves

And we stay mad at ourselves
For our misdeeds and misdoing
Is it realistic to easily forgive someone


If you extend the olive branch
Of friendship and kindness and forgiveness
And it is not returned
Should you really keep trying
Even if you feel it is a lost cause


Or will persistence win the day
With the honesty and sincerity of words
Be recognized and acknowledged
Followed by a reasonable attempt
To let bygones be bygones


Is this one of the famous battles
Between head and heart
With both having opposing views
But the same hold on your psyche

Neither winning, neither losing

Sometimes I wonder
If our lack of ability to forgive
Is truly more rooted in our
Bruised ego and hurt feelings

Perhaps the pain we feel is comforting

If I were to release my anger and my pain
Only to be knocked again
Who becomes the bigger fool
Me for trying
Or them for doing

I wish that such matters were as easy
As a game of tic-tac-toe
Or perhaps it is
Sometimes you win and sometimes you lose
Neither happens if you don’t take a chance

So I resolve to forgive
To be the bigger and better person
Give of myself as I would want others
To give to me
And perhaps this time everyone will win.

[dumb-diddy-doo]

I took the time to read this and thanks for posting this. This is one of those, stop and think kind of things. I would be the first to admit I take very little time to stop and just read something like this. But I rather enjoyed this.

Thank you!

[Scilynt]

Hey I like you girl ;). That has to count for something right? Right!? lol ;).

I have to admit I have felt burned a few times by some of the people that I never thought would have done it. It has changed my perception and made me a bit less open and sharing which kind of sucks. But I have also met some great people that help offset the negative. I'm glad for that.

[minnseoelite]

thank you for sharing this. i kinda made me stop and think

[RKGraphics]

thanks for taking the time to read. i've completely acted out of character to try and get some people's attention and i feel low for doing it. just because my feelings were hurt. so i had to think about what i was doing and why i was doing it.

then, of course, there were the jerks that i tried to stay civil with, when i think, they were just doing the same to me as i was doing to others. i don't like feeling hurt, depressed and let down. just something came over me and got the best of me.